COME SO FAR (Got so far to go)

This Saturday morning, I went on a short two mile run to get my day rolling. The moment I started to jog, four beautiful white doves flew above me. It was definitely a sign of peace and being content in my life.

After my workout, it dawned on me that we do not give ourselves enough credit for how far we’ve come. Think about it: In middle school we dreamed of the future and imagined our successes in the years to come. In high school we were extremely stressed about getting into college, getting good grades, performing well on sports teams, and being as involved as we could to make a good impression for admissions offices. Once in college, we had already achieved so much yet we still found countless ways to be stressed about the future. We are now worried about finding an internship, figuring out our strengths & passions and what we want to do, and eventually landing a job. It seems to me that we’re always striving for more without ever looking back and noticing how far we’ve come, what we’ve already achieved, and how much we’ve grown as an individual. We may have a lot ahead of us – there’s no denying that – but it’s important to remember that you have come a long way and you deserve FAR more credit than you give yourself. We should give ourselves a break more often and enjoy the present with satisfaction. When you don’t feel like you’re enough, just remember where you started and where you are now.

Today, I let myself look back in awe of what I’ve already overcome, perservered through, and accomplished. ~When I think back to middle school I remember a time where I had copious amounts of free time to pursue whatever I desired. I had so many different phases going from one activity to the next. One week it could be painting, another gardening, then scrapbooking, baking, experimenting with makeup, nail art, writing, watching a TV show, etc. I also played travel soccer, spent time with friends, went to school, and biked around my neighborhood. I kept busy that’s for sure but I also dreamed of going back to California, visiting a foreign country, and wondered where life would take me. In high school, I worked hard for an unknown future but realized my goal was to get to California for college. I had no clue how I would make it happen but I was determined to get there and had faith. Senior year I applied for the Horatio Alger National Scholarship and to my astonishment, received the award. I attended their annual conference in Washington DC and met some extremely influential people, a few who changed my life. This award meant so much to me and is the reason attending college was possible. Then going to Chapman was a dream come true and I knew I had finally reached my goal. I started taking business classes, got involved on campus, and worked hard once more. Most recently I embarked on my year abroad which fulfilled many of my dreams and was life changing. Furthermore I started my first professional internship this summer. Eleven year old me woudn’t be able to fathom how much I’ve accomplished.

That’s my story in short, but now I encourage you to reflect on your own life, all that has happened – the good and the bad – and realize how far you’ve come! The good means you’ve conquered so much and the bad shows you’ve overstepped barriers. Despite what you may think about yourself and all your doubts and insecurities, you should know you’re already an accomplished person just by all the things you’ve done. Think back to when you thought you’d never get through a time-consuming group project, a huge presentation, an ACT test, an interview, getting into your college – these are all major things we should be PROUD of now. Not many people take the time and energy to feel good about what they’ve already succeeded in, and just get caught up in the next project or commitment. Next time you’re worried about all the craziness that lies ahead – since we are told it just gets harder – remember just how far you’ve come. Even if it means literally writing it down, looking at old pictures, or whatever it takes, just glance at the proof of your amazing, inspirational, noteworthy accomplishments! You should feel fulfilled and gratified. Look back with CONTENTEDNESS and PEACE OF MIND.


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